Tuesday, June 21, 2005
im sick. =/
roxy tells it all 9:17 PM`
music: "my paper heart" by all-american rejectsyesterday was 6w day! bought an op shorts b4 going las i got no shorts. yea den had gathering at pasir ris park. huimin didn't hafta go to track so she came early wif odelia amily leeqin and me XD amily so late ok! she was combing her hair all these. lol. anyway fiq skipped his cca to come early. bad boy. we saw weekiat dey all at econ opposite de bus stop las. dey were waiting for edmund. but in da end dey reached earlier dan us -.-" ok las so forward to pasir ris park. aaron's hair sucked man. was like wj's curtain hair. dunno y he neva style lol. den we were playing on the beach. and we saw this cute small crab. and leeqin held it man. i was like 'ew'. den we went cycling XD den go the playground play. lol. nigel got stuck in the 'flyingfox' thing. it was so funny man! oh ya den on the way back odelia fell. she always fall one las. last time was junrui push her. her knee was seriously injured lorx. but she still managed to cycle back. oh ya the bike seat sucked. all our butts hurt like crazy. but we were so tired after tt las. couldn't even stand still for 5 secs. by the time we came back dad mum and sis were der liaoz. my dad help us start fire las. but we messed up the thing. jinju was showing off her camping skills lmao. so my dad go start again las. about 7 liddat den start bbq-ing. den everyone left one by one after eating. so left huimin odelia amily jieying priscilla jiajing aaron hinnam nicholas and wj. jiajing didn't eat at all at first las. but he decided tt he didn't wanna lose out since he paid $10. so he ate like 10+ hotdogs, 10 satays and one stingray. and he took back one box of chicken wings. half of the food were left anyway. he kept trying to take pics of ppl las budden his cam lenses got orange light one -.- den dey left las. den after we clean up nicholas and hinnam took my dad car home. yep tt's about all. but was super fun. 6w rocks forever :)music: "the reason" by hoobastank
roxy tells it all 1:22 PM`
Sunday, June 19, 2005
music: "she wants to be me" by busted
wanted to write dis post tmr. budden i bet der's gonna be alot to write tmr XD yea went to ps wif mum and sis-es. ate pastamania. it's like damn nice ok. the cheese rocks. beef bolognese XD yea den got my roxy flip flops. erm wanted to buy op shorts. but dun haf nice one. blah. den wanted to get the nike bands. budden sold out. piang. if i get my current livestrong one goes to my sis. haha. oh yea felt a bit guilty cuz we left my gd old dad alone at home. nah he's not 'good'. he's sick now. took some pics. at the etc part.
tmr's gonna be the happiest day of my life.
it's
6 wisdom
day
tmr!
i'm okay. as long as we noe, it's really okay.
music: "lifestyle of the rich and famous" by good charlotte
roxy tells it all 11:43 PM`
Saturday, June 18, 2005
crushed out and waiting,
blacked out and fading'
flaked out and shaken'
just breaking for you,
breaking for you,
freaked out and pacing,
i can't go on like this forever...
roxy tells it all 1:34 PM`
Friday, June 17, 2005
music: "you and me" by lifehouse
cut hair. abit and thin. cut at my neighbour house. her son primary 1 next yr. name nicholas. he was tokingtokingtoking non stop all the way man. den went home lorx. anyway i think i saw tt cute guy again XD 3rd time since last week i think. he's from punggol sec. ok sry got carried away. and i really wanna fix my ps so i can play my harvest moon. but nam gonna send me the ps emulator when he returns XD lalala.
immobilized by my fears, and soon to be blinded by tears.
music: "break you" by marion raven
roxy tells it all 6:51 PM`
Thursday, June 16, 2005
i'm finding my way back to sanity again
though i don't really know what
i'm gonna do when i get there
take a breath and hold on tight
spin around one more time
and gracefully fall back to the arms of grace
cause i am hanging on every word you say
and even if you don't want to speak tonight
that's alright, alright with me
cause i want nothing more than to
sit outside heaven's door and listen to you breathing
is where I want to be, yeah...
where I wanna be...
i am looking past the shadows
in my mind into the truth and
i'm trying to identify
the voices in my head
god, which one is you
let me feel one more time
what it feels like to feel alive
and break these calluses off of me
one more time
lifehouse - breathing.
roxy tells it all 4:04 PM`
Wednesday, June 15, 2005
music: "invisble" by clay aikenonly caught 20 mins of slp. couldn't slp for whole nite. lied wide awake on my bed for at least 4 hours. so the whole nite was spent using the comp and tv. den in the morning took a lil' nap. den go to efps wif april. mr tong rmb-ed us. so he let us in wifout a pass XD yea den we saw banpoh on the way. so tell him bout the gathering lorx. he'll most probably be der. yep den came home. was raining. was deciding wad to wear las. den yea i was all in black.took bus 3 to whitesands. saw shifu and 'uncle' at bus stop. greg and gerald! both bro like so cute ok. greg is still as humourous as he is. gerald is still as crappy as ever. anywayz met ginny. den we go mac lorx. toktoktok den eat. yea den her fone rang and it was my number calling her. she was like blur. tt was when i realised i forgot to bring my fone out. den andrea come. den do proj. stupid mindmap las. den went to look for hitch de disc but dun haf :( den dey wanted to go arcade. den go downtown east de lorx. dey played las. i didn't. wasn't in such a great mood and was tired. den we saw lewis and tt fren of his. lewis de earhole/s like damn nice lorx. den andrea and ginny race wif 'em lorx. umm daytona. den at first tt 'fren' leading de. den dunno wad happened den he become last. den sore loser den leave the game. lmao. b4 the game he was like toking so loudly. den after tt lewis didn't win las. den he was like "wah lan eh". super funny lorx. den playplayplay. umm go outside arcade den ginny saw the binghui. his reaction was quite a funny one. den it turned out tt fai was der too XDtt's almost all. yea i'm fucking screwed now. bad mood yea. so what? do u even care?catch me as i fall. say u're here and it's all over now.music: "i'd do anything" by simple plan
roxy tells it all 4:04 PM`
Tuesday, June 14, 2005
music: "swing swing" by the all-american rejectsjus when i thot things wud get beta. i am only getting the 'unfrenliness' from gurls. i hope i'm the one thinking too much. i really hope so. yea like i said b4. once u get bad things, it jus keeps getting worse. yea like a rainbow will appear after the storm. tt saying is crap ok. someone tell me i'm the one thinking too much. argh. butinoe, nobodygivesadamnaboutme.yea now i hope that it wun rain on monday so we can haf the 6w class gathering. if not we gotta sit under shelter and eat chips for hrs. yep tt's all i suppose.shud i smile bcuz we are frens, or shud i cry bcuz tt's wad we'll always be?music: "whisper" by evanescence
roxy tells it all 9:55 PM`
Monday, June 13, 2005
music: "promise" by simple planhitch's vcd is supposed to out by today. but couldn't find it. ok nvm. gotta be patient =D yep and hinnam jus went to hk hours ago. no more jokes/crap from him. but i guess it's ok cuz fiq's not gone. yea he'll be hitting his face wif a ping-pong racket and slapping himself wif the racket. nah actually that's me. but i dun haf any racket now. yea by now if u're not falling aslp u shud have mighty patience. *thumbs up* ok. today quite unlucky tho. but saw alot of ppl i know =D yep. saw rubini and weijie (ew) at punggol plaza. and sylvest & aunty eunice at econ der. i think i left out someone but i can't recall. doesn't matter anyway. jus finished calling 6w peeps. not all. most of 'em weren't home :( haha but the way jiajing toked was super cute ok. anticipating for monday =Dshould have seen dis coming. should haf read the signs. anyway i guess it's over.music: "zhi you wo" by energy
roxy tells it all 8:32 PM`
please, please forgive me
but i won't be home again
maybe someday you'll look up
and barely conscious, you'll say to no one
isn't something missing?
you won't cry for my absence, i know
you forgot me long ago
am I that unimportant
am I so insignificant
isn't something missing?
isn't someone missing me?
even though i'm the sacrifice
you won't try for me, not now
though i'd die to know you love me
i'm all alone
isn't someone missing me?
please, please forgive me
but i won't be home again
i know what you do to yourself
i breathe deep and cry out
isn't something missing?
isn't someone missing me?
even though i'm the sacrifice
you won't try for me, not now
though i'd die to know you love me
i'm all alone
isn't someone missing me?
and if i bleed
i'll bleed
knowing you don't care
and if i sleep just to dream of you
i'll wake without you there
evanescence - missing
roxy tells it all 3:41 PM`
Saturday, June 11, 2005
music: "everytime" by simple plan
yep i was bored. so i decided to read all my prev posts. amazing at how much stupid things i wrote. notice i used "MUCH". too many to count =( i rmb rick saying "tampines virginial library". yea i rmb tt time nick n rick called me to listen to their conversation; "what do u think of a shit?". man tt was funny.
ok i stopped at march archives. i can slp jus reading 'em.
and yep now i'm reminded of JUDY CHAN. tt old hag who taught us "maths". teach so slow. the fone incident. yep. teach halfway den we hear fone de ringtone mah. den she was like screaming "WHOSE HANDPHONE IS THAT????" den after like 10 secs she said "oh it's mine". -.-"
yea u shud be falling aslp now. my posts are BORAANNNGGG.
everything was great. it was just you and me. den i woke up, realising it was you and HER.
music: "into the dark" by juliana theory
roxy tells it all 6:16 PM`
Friday, June 10, 2005
every moment in dis life hurts.yea like anyone would even give a fucking damn.
roxy tells it all 10:33 PM`
music: "we belong together" by mariah carey
that thing was troubling me for the whole nite =( still think i haf no friends and all tt stuff. i'm NOT trying to gain wateva shitty sympathy, get it? yep i tell ppl not to feel useless but here i am feeling completely useless. like shit like crap and anything negative. yea i think i'm dislikeable. argh. i tried to distract myself by watching tv and vcds. ok let's see. watched smallville 2 epi 1 & 2 den watch friends on chn 5. yep it's da one wif phoebe's hideous drawing of gladys. err yea and joey's ichiban lipstick. yep and den watched smallville again. by the time it's already 5:30 in the morning.
den yep it's coyote ugly again. adam garcia is jus gorgeous ok. no wunda i thot cammie was familiar. she's izabella miko, the one in mr. brightside's video. i can't wait for leann rimes' new album. it was out in u.s. on 25th jan. tt's like so long from now. shitty shitty. everything is jus shitty.
if tt's the way u wan it, well der u go.
music: "you and me" by lifehouse
roxy tells it all 5:08 PM`
Thursday, June 09, 2005
i didn't mean it
when i said i didn't love you, so
i should have held on tight
i never shoulda let you go
i didn't know nothing
i was stupid, i was foolish
i was lying to myself
i could not fathom that i would ever
be without your love
never imagined i'd be
sitting here beside myself
cause i didn't know you
cause i didn't know me
but i thought i knew everything
i never felt
the feeling that i'm feeling
now that i don't hear your voice
or have your touch and kiss your lips
cause i don't have a choice
oh, what i wouldn't give
to have you lying by my side
right here, cause baby
(we belong together)
when you left i lost a part of me
it's still so hard to believe
come back baby, please
cause we belong togethermariah carey - we belong together
roxy tells it all 9:48 PM`
Wednesday, June 08, 2005
music: "don't phunk with my heart" by b.e.p
ok let's tok about yesterday. nth much. watched wimbledon. quite nice las. i LOVE the tennis parts. den couldn't resist. so i watched coyote ugly, again. adam garcia is damn cute ok. and tt little british accent of his. and deep voice. omg man. yea so i slept at 5am. den woke up at 11 plus wer leping smsed me. it took like 4 repetitions of my ringtone to wake me up. wateva.
today went out wif nas peeps. err ginny wanting and the 3 guys. dey each had a prob today tho, lol. first, brandon had butt problem. dey kept hurting lol. den kenneth's mum was pissed off wif him. and nicholas got scolded by alot of ppl. ok we bought da tickets and went down to long john to eat. da uncle asked ginny if she wanted chilli and looked at me. i was only ordering sprite. den the uncle or manager was like "sprite with chilli???" it was stupid. yea stupid. ok i jus wasted space and time. yea yea and den we walked to nike and flash n splash. i want the bags and shoes man. so damn nice =( okk den we walked around den go arcade. yea watch nicholas play. den we were like late for the movie monster-in-law. and someone took our seats blahblahblah. the movie was nice las. j lo is pretty =) her tan is nice man. but my bladder was like bursting lorx lol. so i went to da toilet only to find out later i missed the part wer j lo said "mother fucker". damn. ok after the movie we sorta walked around. den decided to watch madagascar. budden kenneth ginny and wanting couldn't make it =( so left wif nick brandon n me. the movie is super NICE ok. david schwimmer rocks. ross from friends. so nice man. gonna get da vcd when it comes out =) fun lorx. but the cinema was super cold. and i was da only one who brought a jacket -.- funny, y didn't dey bring jackets when they watch movies ? lol ok shouldn't be so kaypoh. i felt like i was floating after the movie. on the way home it was ROCKY. everything was like shaking =/
i don't know wad to say. jus hope u will feel da same wayy.
music: "live twice" by darius
roxy tells it all 9:25 PM`
Monday, June 06, 2005
music: "swing swing" by the all-american rejects
recently i got kinda addicted to lizzie mcguire. jake thomas is super duper cute ok. so funny sia. keep shouting de. but he's just a kid, ok was a kid. he's like 2 yrs older dan me. and gordo is CUTE. adam lamberg, yea. his voice super deep :D den today afternoon got da show creatively mine. got one 12 yr old kid. look damn mature. got abit curly hair like adam lamberg. handsome handsome. damn guys wif lil' bit of curled hair are sexy!
den go rivervale mall look for mum. the aunties der so nice. give sweets :D den rented videos. err coyote ugly (cuz features leann rimes). wimbledon and smallville. watched coyote ugly las. damn nice lorx. leann rimes rocks :) piper perabo is just way sexy. and tt guy! adam garcia. haha yea adam again. handsome las.
IT'S TIME TO JUST MOVE ON!!!
music: "shi jie mo ri" by jay chou
roxy tells it all 10:03 PM`
Sunday, June 05, 2005
music: "hanging by a moment" by lifehouselifehouse rocks! jason's voice sounds nice. he makes singing seem so easy. their live performances rocks manz. as gd as recorded one sia. and one thing, their drummer is crazy. like to dance as he drums :Dlalala. i wanna go out.nick lachey is hot. jessica simpson's lucky.music: "end of me" by marion raven
roxy tells it all 6:02 PM`
Saturday, June 04, 2005
yesterday midnight was reading his msg history las. was supposed to bring back happy memories. but i guess it didn't work. the opposite happened. gonna run out of tissue papers soon. things were so so different last time. everything's like poof now.
i can't slp cuz my pillow is too wet.
roxy tells it all 10:21 PM`
staring right back in the face
a memory can't be erased
i know, because i tried
start to feel the emptiness
and everything i'm gonna miss
i know, that i can't hide
all this time is passing by
i think its time to just move on
when you come back down
if you land on your feet
i hope you find a way to make it back to me
when you come around
i'll be there for you
don't have to be alone
with what you're going through
start to breathe and fake a smile
its all the same after a while
i know, that you are tired
carrying the ones you lost
a picture frame with all the thoughts
i know, you hold inside
i hope that you can find your way back
to the place where you belong
you're coming back down
you say you feel lost, can i help you find it
when you come around
from time to time we all are blinded
you're coming back down
you don't have to tell me what you're feeling
i know what you're going through
i wont be the one that lets go of you
i think it's time to just move on...lifehouse - come back down
roxy tells it all 12:23 AM`
Friday, June 03, 2005
music: "because of you" by kelly clarkson
enrique's hero jus makes me wanna cryy :(
yesterday nite all da fears n troubles from all 3 err 'thingy' started coming in... and couldn't stop crying for da whole nite... slept at 2:30am... den i was forced to wake up at 12 today =( cuz dey coming to do project... so pack pack pack den went down fetch ginny n wanting lorx... den da guys were still at tm ok... so we watched da little rascals las... den da guys came at like 3pm -.-" brandon kenneth n kar yaow... ginny was screaming out of da window manz lol... den dey were playing playing playing... pillow fight lorx... den brandon had post-natal depression or sumthing... den he admitted he was going thru menopause =( den at 4 plus brand went down to punggol interchange to retrieve his wallet... he lost in on bus 3 las... den we were screaming around lorx... neva even do lit proj las... anyway perry was supposed to come wif us... budden he got lost or sumthing... den dey were watching hi-five... wtf... den brandon was singing along... ok everyone except ginny n me were... den watch spongebob... everyone was singing lol... den we somehow finished da proj las... somehow had a feeling dey didn't enjoy da stay at my house =/ yes it's tt stupid feeling, again... i admit it, i miss ui feel 40 kinds of sadness when u're gone and i feel da same things always happen when u're gone...music: "purest of pain" by son by four
roxy tells it all 9:35 PM`
Thursday, June 02, 2005
music: "it's like that" by mariah carey
I GOT MY TAN!!!!!!!!!!!
but i prayy it will last... my sis wanna swim mahh... so took dis chance to tan... my aim was to tan my legs... gotta wait a while b4 the 'results' come out... but so far my hands and face are tanner dan my legs when they were ALREADY tanner dan my legs... redundant huh? wadeva... ok den went to united square... walk around den saw the 'elephant' from da chn 8 show at 9pm... zheng ge ping las and his wife n kids... he's so tall, and his socks are damn high :D okk den walk around las... den my sis go toys r us buy her stuff... den bought this damn ex chocolate... 240 g for $22... but i didn't like -.-" err ya tt's all...
you won't cry for my absence i noe
you forgot me long ago
am i tt unimportant?
am i so insignificant?
*evanescence - missing*
music: "damn" by leann rimes
roxy tells it all 8:36 PM`
Wednesday, June 01, 2005
i wrote dis letter in my head, cuz so many things were left unsaid...but now u're gone n i can't think straight...simple plan - i'd do anything
roxy tells it all 1:13 AM`
